Life doesn't go well. It's been a while since he started selling dangerous videos after being entrusted with them by a mysterious old man, but instead of increasing his savings, his spirit has worn down and he has lost sight of the meaning of life. Even if they earn money, it only means they don't have to worry about their retirement, and they don't know how to use it to enrich their lives. At best, we can pretend to care about our health by adding salad to our beef bowls. Even if you become a millionaire, you can't even imagine driving a cruiser in the Caribbean like what you see rich people do in movies. As an uneducated person like myself, no matter how much money I have, the only way I know how to spend it is to waste it by opening a bottle of unflavored champagne at a cabaret club, or throwing money at a slightly prettier-than-average streamer. Someone once said that the secret to living a rich life is to live according to one's means, but the suffering of people who end up with more money than they can afford is nothing but luxury. I know that's not the case, and even if I talk to Chiebukuro about it, I know that they'll only write low-level comments like "give it to me" or "donate it." I thought about how money could wipe away the guilt of being complicit in the old man's crime, but since the victims in question have no memory of being turned into masturbators in the first place, it would be unreasonable to pay compensation to them. I thought that the best I could do was to go to the places where these women worked as customers and contribute to the sales and give them tips, but that meant I had to look for them based on their location, so I thought it was stalking. If you imagine him behaving in a similar manner, he is nothing but a disgusting man, and in the end all you can do is watch and do nothing.
There are times when I get tired of living with such mental conflicts, but I have no choice but to convince myself that life is full of such contradictions, and the number of imitators of the old man is increasing more and more. I don't think I'm that bad in this shitty world. ``Those who imitate criminals are the true bottom of the trash.'' ``All those who copy something that worked without any effort will be strongly deported to some country.'' This was said by an old man. It doesn't concern me because it's a word, but I wonder how people who simply want to make money and take easy methods can use it when they have it. I guess they can only waste their money like me. In that sense, I'm no different from them. However, I am aware of that. I know I'm a miserable piece of shit.
